By the way, if you ever wanna see who cares and who doesn't, just disappear for a little bit. Some of the people on my 'friends' list couldn't wait to get rid of me. (And some of the now missing names surprised me a little.) This sucks of course because my LJ is indeed (or at least was) completely and utterly 'me.' I'm tired of hurting. So I've just got to train myself not to care as much. A million thank-you's to those who stuck around. I am in your debt. Ask of me freely.